I decided to try out for a reality dating show. I wasn’t sure about it at first and then thought, what the hell, it can’t be any worse than online dating, right? So if it happens, you all will get to see me…for real. I will be airing out the dirty laundry about me and my past relationships. Yep, that’s right. No more hiding from anyone.
The first thing they made me do was a long survey about my past relationships and what I want in a man. Well I talk about what I want in a man with my friends all the time, so that was no big deal. Smart, funny, engaging, not boring…and of course dark hair and handsome, but in a geeky way. Check.
The next thing I started to go into was my dating history. This, I found out, was not as easy to face. First of all, I haven’t had any real relationships in the past 2 1/2 years. Even more depressing, I counted off the amount of men during this time. I don’t think I’m going to admit to the number, but let’s just say there have been lots. What are the chances not even one of them has turned into a relationship? And even more depressing, not one of them have gone beyond a 3rd date.
So what about sex? Yes, I’ve had plenty of sex. Which overall makes this entire scenario that much more depressing. I have gone through one night stands, booty calls, sex on the 2nd date, and not one of them turned into a relationship. Am I giving it up too easy?
My good friend who keeps her sexuality as a prize would say definitely. I say, maybe. However, if these guys were not meant to be after date 2 anyways, would I ever get laid? And that’s when I give myself a break and say, let them eat cake (get laid). I want it, they want it, so we all end up happy in the end. And neither one of us has to sit through an uncomfortable 4th and 5th date when we know there is no potential for a relationship there.
The only problem is when I find someone I actually might want a relationship with. I am so used to jumping in bed with them, they don’t ever take me seriously. And then I get my heart broken because of course I have fallen for them within the first 2 dates.
And so goes the sad cycle of the last 2 years. Which became painfully clear while filling out this detailed relationship survey. Why didn’t someone make me take this survey a year ago? Maybe I would be in a relationship by now.
Enough ranting. If any of you all are interested in being in the show, take a look at the flyer below. Even if for only getting a chance to fill out the survey 😉